Believe it or not, I've read things on the Web that actually shame body positivity. It's a little ludicrous to shame a movement that's trying to end the shaming of a group that's being shamed. Just typing that made me roll my eyes. However there is a thin line between being thrilled with who you are and being healthy. And I've stepped over that line.


America, next to Mexico, is the fattest country in the world due to fast and processed foods, a lack of nutrition education, poverty, and a horrible food industry that puts revenues before human lives. Even though I know these facts, am in school to study nutrition, and know the rights and wrongs of my own personal health, I am human, and am tempted just like the children who think pizza is healthy because it's served in schools.


Last week I went to the doctor, weighing in at 167 lbs at the height of 5'8. After some research, I learned I was 1 point above my BMI, and that made me view myself a little differently in the mirror. I'm fine with not being model thin. I love my round booty and wide hips. Curves are where it's at now! But even though a positive mental attitude about yourself is extremely healthy, too much weight is not. Obesity will cause complications down the road and will even your life span. Still, I'm hardly obese, but I could easily become so if I don't make some changes. I'm almost 40, my metabolism is slowing down, and as they say on Game of Thrones, "Winter is Coming," which brings cookies, cakes, and glazed hams along with it. I suppose it's time to shew away any offerings of gravy pie. And sadly, my favorite- hot chocolate.

Recently, I stated that I'm usually a size 12. That's where my body wants me to be. But that wasn't entirely true... a week ago I was wearing size 16 trousers. Today I have on a loose fitting pair of size 14 jeans. My body fits great into a pair of twelves I have in the closet. And no, I have not been fasting for the past 7 days. Pants sizes are SO confusing, and the older I get, the worse it seems to get!

A couple months ago a friend shared a Salon article with me that changed the way I thought about myself and my body. After I read it, I became less body negative, and much more body positive. The article made complete sense- we are our DNA, and our DNA determines what we become. DNA also determines our body shape and weight. We all have a set weight our body prefers.

When I became a young woman, I was always a size 12. I, like most people, dieted, exercised and starved myself to try to be model thin. Through cutting carbs, sweets and running every day, I managed to get down to a size 8. Then soon after I started eating a more balanced diet (including carbs and sweets in moderation), I found myself back in my size 12 jeans.


Through all the times I found my weight fluctuating, I never stopped to ponder why most magazine models seemed so effortlessly little. It was because of the same reason my body liked being an average size 12. Most models are just thin. That's how their DNA made them- small boned, or with a high metabolism, etc.

Please enjoy the article. I hope it will help others love themselves a little easier!

You Should Never Diet Again: The Science and Genetics of Weightloss

In a few days I will be returning to school and starting my second year of study. I'm already loathing the lack of time that will soon be upon me, but knowledge is addicting. It's funny how as a youth I didn't care a thing about school, but now, many years later, I can't learn enough.

I'm enjoying this greater appreciation I now have of things, all the way down to the little cells we can't see that help us function. We, as humans, are pretty huge compared to our cells. I often forget about them. But everything we do- what we eat, drink, how long we sleep, and when we chose to take a breath, has some kind of impact on them. It really makes me look at the world differently, especially since it's MUCH bigger than we are, and that everything WE do impacts it.

My cat, Nip, for example has conquered it with only two paws.



Prost!